Stress ;-----;;;;;;;;

eurgh;
Well school starts in exactly two weeks, and last night I was looking through my enrollment book from when I pre-enrolled like 6 monthes ago. I was looking at the classes I'm going to have to take junior and senior year, which I'm not even sure yet which direction I'm going there AP or IB. IB would be very beneficial, yet a shit load of work and I'd most definitely HAVE to take Summer school/school online....I wish I'd realized the a year and a half ago. Also, I'm not sure a International Baccularete is what I want....I really don't know about that. I could do some AP although and get some IB certificates, but whats the point in IB certificates? *sigh*
I also looked at the classes I want to take Debate, Psychology, Music Theory, and a few others that I don't even have room for. I could actually take Psychology as an IB course but then I'm stuck with the same schedule for two years, IB English, IB History of the Americas, IB Math, IB Science of some kind-either physics or bio, IB German, IB Psychology, and Orchestra.
How fucking boring.
and this being sophmore year, I have know room this year unless I postpone my last PE credit and computer credit to the summer, but who knows I'll go through in getting that and lord knows I wont have room junior and senior year.
and the thing about IB Math....it's just IB Math...whatever the fuck that means!
What happened to Precalc and Calculas that I've been waiting for jun. and sen. year to take for like ever.
and IB Science...I have to choose between Biology and Physics....Biology being the more preferable because I could take one year of Psychology instead of 2 and actually have an empty slot senior year....but I've already taken Biology once, and Chemistry this year...and I don't want two years of Bio IB dissecting god knows what. With IB Physics...I don't get that free space, and how the hell do I know I'll even get physics at all....I have no idea what it is even!!!
eurgh; and this Kansas Board of Scholars, I guess if I want to go to some Kansas school I'm not really sure requires a unit in bio, chem, and physics
I'm thinking partial AP and partial IB but eurgh wtf!?

While I was freaking out about all of this at 3am as well as my current GPA and how I have no hope of being in the Top Ten at graduation anymore, esp after that B in Honors English 9 last semester I realized the route and solution to all of these problems is that I still have no fucking clue what I plan on doing with myself after high school.
Yes, I want to go to a good college....via scholarships!? and maybe student loans if I must
I need to go to one
now what college is this? I have no clue.
and even worse, I still have no idea what I what I want to do career wise
something that I'll be good at and make lots and lots of money...hum
I've considered Law, but I really am not sure about that....I need to talk to Mack's mom
I've also considered Psychology....I know, doesn't work for me, right? xD
and I've considered many other things that I know I'll never be able to do like be an FBI Agent, or a graphic artist.
*sigh*

and the worst part of all of this, I have till the end of January 2009, thats right 6 monthes.
SIX MONTHES to figure out what I want to do Junior and Senior year, because Junior enrollment is at the end of January....and I sorta need a general idea in my after high school future for this too.
fuckkkk
so I'm going to go into a little bubble for awhile to try and figure this all out
well maybe not
It'll be easier when school starts but eurghhhhhhh.

On a good note, I figured out Summer School, believe it or not, will raise my GPA...hmmph, I had no idea
now what about Symphony Orchestra? to take as a class or not to take as a class? eeeek

anyways
on a even better note...I'm going to Jessie's this evening and it's FRIIIIIIIIDAYYY
: D
and she got Rock Band last week so WHEEEEEEE

sorry for destroying anyone bored enough to actually read this
;D ily! xD